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Promises

For the longest time, I've been afraid of promises. And I don't want this to become a sob story, so I'll keep this part short; My Nana passed away when I was 15 years old, and he was truly my person - a bundle of joy and love (somehow even in his most challenging times). If anyone has ever made me feel like anything is possible, it was him! Almost a month before that dreadful day came was my birthday, and he'd been quite sick for a while by then, having had about 5 surgeries recently. He used to love singing and dancing, and on my birthday, as we turned on his favourite songs, we asked him to have a little dance with us, but he said, "Not this time, but next year, I promise!" and now, as we know it, next year never came. So, for years, all I could think whenever someone promised me something was that Nana had also promised, and this too would never happen. This made life a little weird since I started being scared of promises in general (yeah, even I didn'...

Ghosts of Boyfriends Past

I was not gonna miss a chance to title my blog with this (and for those of you who haven't watched the movie, "Ghosts of Girlfriends Past," I would highly recommend you do it if you're looking for some light, witty comedy).  When you're in an MBA college, you tend to see a lot of breakups around you (don't discount yours!). This got me discussing breakups and post-breakup rituals with my friends. One of my good friends suggested that if I have to go through a breakup, I'll hand my phone to my girlfriend (or ex - whatever the moment calls for) and ask her to delete all our photos and chats, so that we know that it's for real and it's time to move on. And I just couldn't disagree more. But then again, there could be different perspectives here. I don't think it's fair for either of the parties to delete every trace of what they had because even if it was for a short time, you loved each other and shared some amazing and happy moments toge...

What makes a date decent?

This is a question that I've been trying to answer for a while now. And I thought everyone had some sort of checklist for what makes a date good enough for them. So, I wanted to try to have one too, but the more people I met, the more I realised that you can't really define a decent date. Because even if you stay the same (which is hardly the case with me), the person you'll meet next could be completely different from the one you previously met. And that creates the possibility of liking an activity with someone that you hated with someone else.  So, I've been on a few dates lately, just to realise how messed up our dating app culture is:/// - And yes, this made me not just delete the apps but also almost hate men in general, but I guess that's the story for another blog!  Talking about the few dates I've been to, each one was really different. And just to put it out there, I love going on dates, to which my friends keep asking me "WHY?" - So, I'd...

Do I like flowers?

Someone just asked me this exact question, and I went through a whirlwind of emotions trying to answer that, so I thought of writing about it. I've always wondered how people are able to choose one particular flower whenever they're asked this specific question because I surely can't give one single answer. I absolutely adore flowers. I love them to my core, and that's why I love to paint them and doodle them wherever possible. I've always felt that flowers are the most perfect little things in this world. Even when they're of different colors and even when they have various shapes and sizes, all you can do is love them. They're perfect even on days that they are not, which is a natural miracle for us to experience. But talking about my favourite flowers.... I love the scent of roses, so all of my perfumes revolve around all kinds of rose fragrances from the Red Rose to the China Rose.  I love the elegance and the passion that Tulips exhibit. They nudge you ...

Clouded Judgement

So yesterday, we did a little exercise in class for "Leadership Development" where we were supposed to give and receive feedback on our leadership styles from our friends. To answer the prompt of the thing that can hold your friend back in leadership, one of my friends mentioned that my overexcitement or extreme emotions can cloud my judgment, and that sure seemed like a bold statement to make. To understand this better, I asked for an instance (because I just couldn't understand it - I mean, yeah, I do get overexcited sometimes, and I sure do have a lot of extreme emotions, but clouded judgement?) Talking about the instance, he said that right at the start of the second year, I was really excited about helping and guiding the juniors (because that's how our seniors helped us, and I'm eternally grateful for them). Still, somehow, I ended up helping too many juniors, which led to extreme exhaustion. Some of those ungrateful bitches got me so angry because they thou...

Mood swings (a poem)

I had this one in my drafts for the last 4 years. I think I was hoping to make it a little more extended one day, but life is too short to not publish your childhood poems (yes, 4 years back feels like childhood now). So, here goes... Sometimes I can be so grumpy. Instead of being happy. Mood swings at the worst. So, I may have an outburst. The reason could be my periods. Or a ton of stress. Give me a surprise. And I might apologize. I might get excited. And may even seem ecstatic. Okay, this kid was clearly going through mood swings, maybe because of a fight with her boyfriend, without realizing that mood swings are not that rare in her future.

School friends help you remember yourself

 You'll meet these guys once in 5-7 years and suddenly remember how you used to believe you'd take over the world. And maybe that hasn't changed as much. Instead, our definition of "Taking over the world" has. It meant ruling the world at that time, but now, one of the most significant achievements would be beating the patriarchy while making the men in our lives feel as peaceful and confident as the sweetest people they are.  It's funny how our principles don't change much, even with the adulting we churn under daily. I was chatting with a couple of my school friends last week, and we realized that we're at an age when people around us are getting married while we struggle to build our careers. We realized our will to be "Girl Bosses" never changed, even with extremely different careers. But it's definitely not all positive when we think about it. While we were gossiping about how people getting married never really believed in having an...