Clouded Judgement

So yesterday, we did a little exercise in class for "Leadership Development" where we were supposed to give and receive feedback on our leadership styles from our friends. To answer the prompt of the thing that can hold your friend back in leadership, one of my friends mentioned that my overexcitement or extreme emotions can cloud my judgment, and that sure seemed like a bold statement to make. To understand this better, I asked for an instance (because I just couldn't understand it - I mean, yeah, I do get overexcited sometimes, and I sure do have a lot of extreme emotions, but clouded judgement?) Talking about the instance, he said that right at the start of the second year, I was really excited about helping and guiding the juniors (because that's how our seniors helped us, and I'm eternally grateful for them). Still, somehow, I ended up helping too many juniors, which led to extreme exhaustion. Some of those ungrateful bitches got me so angry because they thought this was my job or I'm getting paid for it (okay fine, I do have extreme emotions), so I had to cut them off. 

All this talk about extreme emotions made me wonder how I feel everything too deeply, and for the longest time, I cursed that about myself, but lately I've started to resonate with these emotions as if they were those of an ocean. 

I read this quote by John F. Kennedy somewhere:

"We have salt in our blood, in our sweat, in our tears. We are tied to the ocean."

And the vastness of this quote gives me chills. Just think about it! If I experience all the emotions to an extent which is a little more than usual, does that mean I get to experience the beauty of nature more than usual? Whatever the answer, I think it does, because why are we running after trying to be "Usual" when we can be "Extraordinary"? 

Thinking more about whether my overexcitement and extreme emotions cloud my judgement, WHO CARES? What's the fun in not taking risky or impulsive decisions? And with all my adulting experience so far, I can confidently say that something will always stay fucked up in life, so you might as well stir up some real-life drama by making some questionable choices!!